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May. 21st, 2006 01:07 amEright, so, the evening kind of turned into a bit of a roller-coaster. Somehow husband got on one of his 'I want to open up and talk so we can be closer' moods, which...I suppose it's a good thing, no matter my reticence to participate. Somehow he got me backed into a figurative corner, though, and I ended up opening up all the Failure-issues with work and bawling my eyes out for awhile. And realizing that maybe part of the reason I avoid the talking-to-him-about-issues is that...somehow, when I open up to him, I somehow can't help bawling and it's a much more immediate re-living of the unpleasantness than putting it into written words. It's like...speaking about it aloud puts me right back in the middle of the mood, and it's harder to shake. But I suppose it's probably healthy in the long run. And he was...well, tonight he was being the husband I need him to be and I'm very grateful for it. Despite all my bitching about the other end of his behavioural spectrum, he really does have his good points.
So anyway. Had to work through that, and then go back to work because I forgot to turn in my timesheet before I left yesterday. Last minute 'OMG-I-didn't-get-paid-and-there's-no-one-left-in-the-office-but-you-and-please-god-please-say-you-can-help-me' emergencies will do that to a person. Or at least to me, and my scatterable mind.
But, but but but. On the other end of the roller-coaster-y-ness? Nataku actually nibbled his dinner from my finger when I fed him tonight. ^__^ Which is a tiny, tiny little thing that works wonders as a mood-lifter.
And there's the fact that I don't go back to work until the 31st of May. That's a mood-lifter, too. Yes. I'm taking a vacation. It's a vacation that I wasn't sure I was actually taking until about a week ago, but here I am. I neeeed it, really I do, and that out-weighs whatever hardships I might be imposing on the team back at the office. Not going anywhere, but that works out alright because my boys have not seen anywhere near as much of me as they should have these past five months and just spending time at home with them should be good for us all.
Plus. Internet-radio-featuring-old-friends is kind of a mood-booster, too. Though I suppose it's time for bed now, really. *sigh*
So anyway. Had to work through that, and then go back to work because I forgot to turn in my timesheet before I left yesterday. Last minute 'OMG-I-didn't-get-paid-and-there's-no-one-left-in-the-office-but-you-and-please-god-please-say-you-can-help-me' emergencies will do that to a person. Or at least to me, and my scatterable mind.
But, but but but. On the other end of the roller-coaster-y-ness? Nataku actually nibbled his dinner from my finger when I fed him tonight. ^__^ Which is a tiny, tiny little thing that works wonders as a mood-lifter.
And there's the fact that I don't go back to work until the 31st of May. That's a mood-lifter, too. Yes. I'm taking a vacation. It's a vacation that I wasn't sure I was actually taking until about a week ago, but here I am. I neeeed it, really I do, and that out-weighs whatever hardships I might be imposing on the team back at the office. Not going anywhere, but that works out alright because my boys have not seen anywhere near as much of me as they should have these past five months and just spending time at home with them should be good for us all.
Plus. Internet-radio-featuring-old-friends is kind of a mood-booster, too. Though I suppose it's time for bed now, really. *sigh*
