they seem so real and vivid to me that I don't know if I'll ever be able to write my previous "quantum variant" of Goujun
I have to laugh. I have to, because that is precisely the state of mind I found myself in after 'Dragons & Kami', and then with 'Discovery' on top of that...well. Yeah. Me and my little unrequited-quietly-pining Goujun were feeling pretty insignificant. ^_^; The ideas that I was brewing, one about how he never approached Tenpou despite a desire to do so and then one about how it turned out after some time as lovers that Tenpou did not have the same depth of affection that Goujun held...they just kind of withered. At that point I'd never envisioned them in a full-out relationship that didn't drift apart or involve Kenren; and yet after your fic I couldn't see them any other way *except* companions and lovers eternally bonded. I couldn't stomach Hakuryu-sex, either; but after your uniquely enlightening perspective it's OMG I can't get enough of it. ^_^; Eheh. So. I suppose that what I'm getting at here is that now as time goes by I find those ideas that withered in the glory of your work, and then MJJ's work, are beginning to re-assert themselves and that maybe it just takes a little time passing to regain that faith that each of us has our own way of writing the same characters and that us little folks with our little stories are as valid as the writers who blow us away with their talent. So. I still want to see *your* quantum-variant Goujun, however he may have evolved from your initial concept; because Goujun in the hands of any talented writer is just a beautiful thing. And I have faith that your belief in yourself is stronger than any jaded half-interested medical opinion, because honestly--who knows you better than you? ^_^
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Date: 2005-08-09 04:39 am (UTC)I have to laugh. I have to, because that is precisely the state of mind I found myself in after 'Dragons & Kami', and then with 'Discovery' on top of that...well. Yeah. Me and my little unrequited-quietly-pining Goujun were feeling pretty insignificant. ^_^; The ideas that I was brewing, one about how he never approached Tenpou despite a desire to do so and then one about how it turned out after some time as lovers that Tenpou did not have the same depth of affection that Goujun held...they just kind of withered. At that point I'd never envisioned them in a full-out relationship that didn't drift apart or involve Kenren; and yet after your fic I couldn't see them any other way *except* companions and lovers eternally bonded. I couldn't stomach Hakuryu-sex, either; but after your uniquely enlightening perspective it's OMG I can't get enough of it. ^_^; Eheh. So. I suppose that what I'm getting at here is that now as time goes by I find those ideas that withered in the glory of your work, and then MJJ's work, are beginning to re-assert themselves and that maybe it just takes a little time passing to regain that faith that each of us has our own way of writing the same characters and that us little folks with our little stories are as valid as the writers who blow us away with their talent. So. I still want to see *your* quantum-variant Goujun, however he may have evolved from your initial concept; because Goujun in the hands of any talented writer is just a beautiful thing. And I have faith that your belief in yourself is stronger than any jaded half-interested medical opinion, because honestly--who knows you better than you? ^_^